Love was suppose to find its way ..now its lost somewhere

“Yes,I slept”,

She slept I wondered, eyes wide awake and still in the bed. I wondered what kind of a sleep it was where redness of been awake whole night could be traced so easily.

But now after years while I got accustomed to this incomplete statement. Does eyes betray I pondered. Yes it does, I agreed.

Though she denied vehemently as she always did that she had forgotten him and his beautiful memories but I never understood why to make memories a part of your life when it doesn’t allow you to live your present life in peace and serenity. May be its easy for me to say her forget everything .If I would have been at her place I would have left my past behind….behind…. may be.

“Memories hurt it’s true .It’s damn so difficult to live without a person you always wanted to be with, ”were her words when she was cleaning the dust surfaced upon their photograph. Love brings happiness they say but what kind of love it was , though her eyes seemed like a desert devoid of droplet and her heart wept as if rainfall filling ocean already brimmed.

They both loved each other so immensely that only death would have been the only way to set them apart. But his death not only separated them but brought her so close to him that she completely submitted herself to him , to his memories. She lived in his memories and for his memories .His accident was the only unexpected or rather heart wrenching event in her life which brought her to that phase of life where she though lived but for the sake of it as if her life was a show, a puppet-show and she was one of those puppet doll in the show whose threads were in his hand. He did not move his hands the puppet doll never moved.

May be she still feels about him so deeply because she was responsible for his accident which led him to lose his life. But what she never tried to believe was that it was just an accident and it was not her real intention to push him towards the motionful vehicles. She was just pretending to be angry because of his lack of punctuality where by just to act pricey she just slightly pushed him away from her and he lost his grip and dashed against the motorbike and fell on the road where the heavy duty automobile unable to lower his speed crushed him under it’s wheels .Before she could realize and take back her action the only thing she could see was his trembling body shivering in the pool of blood and his screams I’m sure still beats into her ears.

(written in 2007)

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